Thank goodness there's MSN..

These few days I haven't been feeling myself. I've been feeling quite down and a little emo and the only thing that could help was hanging out with my friends. I really really really miss school to the max. And I never thought I would live to the day I said something like this.

I never ever enjoyed going to school. Never. Even with the wonderful prospect of seeing my friends, or rather clique, in sec school, I would never have woken up in the morning looking forward to a new day of school. I had always looked forward to the weekends where I could escape from school. I really don't know how I could have changed this much. Now, I dread the weekends and holidays when I have to stay at home alone (not completely alone, my family is with me, but I still feel alone). I feel like there's a hole in my heart. I don't feel like talking to my family, I don't feel like going out. I don't think I can survive next week's loooong weekend. I think, TGIS (sunday) and I dread the arrival of Friday.

In school, I have great friends that can somehow or other, make me forget all about my emo-ness and make me feel that someone understands me. They can make me laugh like no other can. We can talk about anything and everything, from acting like a lady to paedophilic tendencies of certain people. While I can't say that I'm close to most people in the class, I think that this is the best class I've ever had in the past 5 years. We have a wide range of characters, from mature to immature, from gentlemanly to crude, from innocent to..erm.. yea, i think you get it. The thing is, almost everyone is funny in his or her own way and it makes school soo much more interesting. And there is no particular person that really gets on my nerves. This is a far cry from my Sec 4 class (I won't say much about it in case someone stumbles upon my blog and decides to spread my feelings to my Sec 4 classmates). Anyway, generally, the only people I really liked were my clique, 5 of us, including me. 5, from a class of 29. A pathetic 17.2%! These are the only people I could talk to without feeling like I'm forcing myself to come up with conversation topics. There were quite a few people who really got on my nerves, and constantly gave me a headache. Classes were unbearable not only because they were boring, but also because of random outbursts by some people. All in all, the detriments of going to school by far outweighed the benefits and I disliked (I wouldn't say hated cause that's just an exaggeration) school. But now. Now everything has changed.

Well, I really have to thank my gods for the incredibly helpful invention of WINDOWS LIVE MESSENGER. Talking to my friends on MSN really helps alot. I think I end up looking kind of wierd/spastic grinning stupidly at the computer screen. Though on the minus side, I think I'm distracting really busy people from their work. The other thing that helps is, however unbelievable it sounds, homework! But this is only helpful for the duration that I'm cracking my brains over which method to use to solve P&C or how to explain Econs. And it hasn't been that helpful recently cause I can't find any homework to do (this doesn't mean I've completed all my random extra available work). I haven't touched homework since yesterday afternoon, 1.32pm (yes, I remembered). So basically, the thing that helps me get through the long tortuous weekend is chatting to my friends.

Thank Goodness There's MSN!

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