Alone time..

I like to stay up till late at night/ early in the morning. I need some time to feel completely alone, when I feel that the whole world is asleep and I'm the only person that exists. When no one can see me, when I can show my true emotions without anyone noticing, when it is just me and comforting silence and darkness. I like this feeling, that I can do anything, show my emotions, and I would be left alone, no one would ask me why. I like that I wouldn't have to worry about hurting other people when I don't feel like talking. I like that I don't have to force myself to make conversation even though I am hurting inside.

I need some time but I can't stay up late, because if I do, I will end up being tired and unfriendly in school. The other alternative: to just fall asleep and be dead to the world. I'm not dreaming anymore. Why?

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