A lvl results are just bringing about extremely conflicted feelings. On one hand, I should feel relieved and glad that it's good enough, yet i cant help but feel really disappointed with myself. I completely did not meet my own expectations, which I did not dare voice out but always confidently felt in my heart. I just feel so "unspecial" and average sighs. I don't see what I could have done to get better results but I always thought I could do better than what I scored now. I hope that in time to come I would forget all about this because it doesn't even matter in any practical sense. I think it's good enough for my scholarship conditional offer, and I've already gotten a place in a US university that I'm looking forward to attending. It's just.. my standards and my expectations (and those of the people around me) that I can't get over..

Still, thanks to all my great friends I talked to in person/online for making me feel so much better :')

...and my bro for not laughing at me